Post by FadedOasis on Sept 4, 2011 5:18:37 GMT -5
To anyone who reads this, please pass this along to Probie and the JP crew. I'm going to try to send this to Probie myself, but I don't know how successful I'll be.
I don't know how to start this, and it's 6am and I haven't gone to sleep yet, so sentences may not seem coherent at first. Bear with me for a sec.
Some backstory, so everyone understands what's been going on (from my perspective). Over the past week, I had noticed several patterns emerging in our community. People stopped posting MKWEA Startup group events, and even when they were posted, barely anyone joined. Meanwhile, people were still playing TF2 just as much as they had been. I noticed a bunch of regulars on "Probie's Hollow", so I asked a few of them what was up. They all mentioned they had been invited.
"Okay, either Probie or the JP group has started a server. That's cool." I really didn't mind. However, over the next week, I got several messages from server regulars about it. Some people were confused, thought I had made a new server, some were complaining a bit. One particular person (you know who you are) complained to me every single night about it, which really got on my nerves.
Several times over that week, I had attempted to get people into MKWEA, and within 30 minutes, people would instead start joining Probie's Hollow. I asked them, they said they'd been invited. I started growing more suspicious.
Last night, I just jumped way too far, to a conclusion I shouldn't have. I posted a Startup event, and literally 5 minutes later, two people on MKWEA mentioned that they had been invited to the JP server. My overactive paranoia jumped in, and I flat-out assumed the JP crew were trying to kill MKWEA by force. Yes, I was paranoid, and I was making rash decisions, very hastily, with nearly no thought. I started, on MKWEA and in some private chats, accusing Probie of trying to kill MKWEA.
Turns out she had no idea the Startup group even existed. Every one of my assumptions was incorrect.
I am an absolute idiot, and I apologize for everything I have said last night.
I never actually talked to Probie about this. I never thought that it could be sheer coincidence that she sent out invites very shortly after I did. I have been in the mindset for the past month or so that, for some reason, Probie doesn't like me, and she wouldn't tell me why.
I should have opened a chat, I should have welcomed the new TF2 server. I should have been civil. But instead, I accused her of nonsense behind her back. For this, I apologize. I regret everything I've said. It was all based on misinformation and overly paranoid assumptions. I was being the mean old jerk, and I'm sorry.
To everyone I've talked to, please understand that my statements were wildly incorrect and they should be disregarded. I was being a paranoid asshole.
If I'm ever being this much of an asshole again, please call me on it. Tell me, either in public or privately, that I need to calm down and look at the situation again. Lord knows I'm not perfect, but I'm trying not to be a total dick.
Probie, please accept my apology. I didn't think before I spoke. I shouldn't have even come to any of the conclusions that I did. I am truly sorry.
If you want to open a chat just to yell at me about how much of a raving lunatic I've been, about how hurtful I may have been, please do so. I completely understand.
I don't know how to start this, and it's 6am and I haven't gone to sleep yet, so sentences may not seem coherent at first. Bear with me for a sec.
Some backstory, so everyone understands what's been going on (from my perspective). Over the past week, I had noticed several patterns emerging in our community. People stopped posting MKWEA Startup group events, and even when they were posted, barely anyone joined. Meanwhile, people were still playing TF2 just as much as they had been. I noticed a bunch of regulars on "Probie's Hollow", so I asked a few of them what was up. They all mentioned they had been invited.
"Okay, either Probie or the JP group has started a server. That's cool." I really didn't mind. However, over the next week, I got several messages from server regulars about it. Some people were confused, thought I had made a new server, some were complaining a bit. One particular person (you know who you are) complained to me every single night about it, which really got on my nerves.
Several times over that week, I had attempted to get people into MKWEA, and within 30 minutes, people would instead start joining Probie's Hollow. I asked them, they said they'd been invited. I started growing more suspicious.
Last night, I just jumped way too far, to a conclusion I shouldn't have. I posted a Startup event, and literally 5 minutes later, two people on MKWEA mentioned that they had been invited to the JP server. My overactive paranoia jumped in, and I flat-out assumed the JP crew were trying to kill MKWEA by force. Yes, I was paranoid, and I was making rash decisions, very hastily, with nearly no thought. I started, on MKWEA and in some private chats, accusing Probie of trying to kill MKWEA.
Turns out she had no idea the Startup group even existed. Every one of my assumptions was incorrect.
I am an absolute idiot, and I apologize for everything I have said last night.
I never actually talked to Probie about this. I never thought that it could be sheer coincidence that she sent out invites very shortly after I did. I have been in the mindset for the past month or so that, for some reason, Probie doesn't like me, and she wouldn't tell me why.
I should have opened a chat, I should have welcomed the new TF2 server. I should have been civil. But instead, I accused her of nonsense behind her back. For this, I apologize. I regret everything I've said. It was all based on misinformation and overly paranoid assumptions. I was being the mean old jerk, and I'm sorry.
To everyone I've talked to, please understand that my statements were wildly incorrect and they should be disregarded. I was being a paranoid asshole.
If I'm ever being this much of an asshole again, please call me on it. Tell me, either in public or privately, that I need to calm down and look at the situation again. Lord knows I'm not perfect, but I'm trying not to be a total dick.
Probie, please accept my apology. I didn't think before I spoke. I shouldn't have even come to any of the conclusions that I did. I am truly sorry.
If you want to open a chat just to yell at me about how much of a raving lunatic I've been, about how hurtful I may have been, please do so. I completely understand.
